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March 24th, 2008
09:19 pm - stop
one is long over
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November 30th, 2007
12:35 am - one-twelve
a seducing scent fills the air
catching the fool's nose by surprise
once thought to be cleared of his affliction
he is dragged in, still willing to compromise
these new words and new names
that fill their songs with an intimate attraction
create insecure dillusions
leaving the fool's heart to faction
the craving never left
and he never said no
but if you won't let him into your heart
please...just let go
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November 22nd, 2007
10:09 pm - zero-eight
though an echo of days past
the dream sustains
just as vivid
as the moment i awoke
while perusing a bustling event,
she glanced from a distance
just another one i thought
just another beauty in the crowd
but assumptions are taken with no merit
as i work vigorously with the world blocked out
she appears right before me
burning a hole in my head
with those glaring eyes
once noticed my smile awakens
and the dame tries to speak
her voice timid and rasp
she admits her love
such an unexpected surprise
my thoughts run wild
what can i say?
how does one respond,
to such words, so profound?
countless scenarios
play out in my mind
but to each story
the conclusion remains the same
i release the tools from my hands
to join the rest of the now meaningless surroundings
as i approach her face
to lay a kiss upon her lips
and when that joining of two hearts,
that seems so eternal,
comes to its fateful end
we now we share that wonderful glare
into each other's eyes
but what is all of this?
it is love
the love of my dreams
a dream that will soon fade
she turns and walks away
i query her sudden change
i cry for her return
as she disappears into the crowd
i slowly awake from the fantasy
begging for more
begging for that feeling to return
the acceptance that there is no hope falls hard
but what of hope?
why should i not hold it so close?
as if it is some impossible goal?
i have the capacity
i kept the dime for so many months
i drank the poison
i grasped them in my hands
but both tales conclude in a dreary end
and i ponder my experiences, wondering
why my grip is so weak?
because the one that is meant to be
will adhere to your heart out of its own desire
and your clenching hands will go unneeded
i deny myself the truth
that patience is all that ever prevails
and that i must wait for the day
when that fanciful dream manifests itself in reality
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November 16th, 2007
10:36 pm - zero-seven
you smile and laugh
you think it's funny and cute
but what do you know?
past a joke and a funny face?
could you possibly fathom
the things i've done?
the determination and pain,
the dedication and effort,
all for you and the rest of them,
just to get you to talk to me
just to get you to smile at me
just to get you to look at me
just to get you to recognize
that i exist in this world
and you
you carry forward in the dark
but only because i keep un-lit
the candle of an unbelievable truth
could you possibly fathom
the power you hold?
your words and your songs
your hellos and goodbyes
all shaping what i am
just to be the manifestion of your dreams
just to meet the standard
just to be a possibility
just to get you to recognize
how much you mean to me
and to the whole lot of you
as you live through heartbreak
you will never know
the wonder contained here
that can bring the happiness and peace
that only exists in your fantasy
ah, m'dear
so tragic an expression
that brings you such worry
'tis just a day in the life
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November 14th, 2007
11:03 pm - one-ten
he thought he was finished
ridden of the poison
but perhaps it is true
that such a poison can never die
its temptation so deceiving
he knows its words mean nothing
but still he lets his the heart wander
with hope so pathetic and blind
he tells himself to slumber
an experienced cure for the heart
but he can't help but wallow
in the grand illusion so hollow
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November 8th, 2007
10:50 pm - zero-six
your disguise, perhaps clever
but it only tricks a fool
in your life's adventure
you have overlooked an important event
the change of a man
gone from that title of contempt
don't fret over the words you have read
for i will say it once again
not to worry m'dear
it was all an exaggeration
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November 6th, 2007
03:51 pm - zero-five
what he thought would never happen
materializes within hours
even with such a short song
he knows the drought is over
but did he commit treachery once again?
is the fool's only ability
to scare them all away?
no matter what he said about your song
it was beautiful
it came from the soul
it was the voice of your heart
but what he said was the truth
this song is only the first step
to happiness
just give it some rest
the feign of control that you hold so dearly
over your mind,
your soul,
and your heart,
will fade away to reveal the truth
that was so apparent all along
and when that day comes
they will smile at each other
ashamed of such folly
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November 5th, 2007
07:26 pm - zero-four
apologies to you
the words that have scared you away
cannot be taken back
but the one promise i can make?
the one that will not change?
i promise to you
it's all in the moment
emotions are never forever
and the feelings of this second
are never the feelings of the next
the comfort of water
is the only thing
that this man truly wants
i can only hope
that you will one day
return from your vacation
i can only hope
that we may return to a time
when life was just a meadow
laying in the sun
gazing at the clouds
singing to one another
the songs of our hearts
pouring each other glasses
of the soul's nectar
telling tales of our adventures
in the forest of love
return to me
i plead to you
as the pure water that is your essence
return to me
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11:02 am - one-eight
where did it go?
present when despised
absent when needed
which is more torturous?
is it better for the heart to wander,
searching for a place to reside
for the rest of time?
or for it to find a temporary home
living in false hope for an eternal bond,
only to be exiled within minutes?
the fool has found the water
that was once misplaced
but in consuming the liquid
not a single thirst is quenched
a new illness to be cured
with only one treatment
poison
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November 4th, 2007
11:47 pm - zero-three
eyelids retract slowly
heavy and unwieldy
for with less rest
comes more weight
a fresh light is exposed
the eyes are not ready
though as adapting creatures
this task is no longer new
but on this day
he will wish the lids were too heavy
for what he will see
is a terror greater than any other
mere seconds passed
and already something afoot
colors, smells, shapes
nothing his mind has processed before
all familiarity escaped
all but the radiator in the corner
with tassels hanging on the side
such a sight never seen before
yet etched into the mind
never to be forgotten
a call from the distance
a figure in the doorway
a new face
a new voice
who are you?
no you're not
what is this place?
no it isn't
am i being kidnapped?
what is happening?
he looks up to peer
this is not his room
this is not his house
this is not his world
what was just a production of the mind
his ultimate fear
has come to life
how is it possible?
how can this be happening?
how can it be real?
how could such a phobia of imagination,
have manifested outside the concious
the radiator lets out a grin
once just inspiration for fear
now the perpetuator
animating it into reality
he cries
he yells
he strikes the bars of steel
uncaring of his self-damage
send me back
send me from this place
take me home
take me where i belong
then a tremor
a strange sensation from that corner
a noise builds slowly
recognizable to none
a voice rings out
one which only God himself
could produce so powerful
a privelege to be heard
his ears go deaf
his eyes go blind
his chest ruptures
leaving only the mind
eyelids retract slowly
unwieldy and heavy
a great force required
the body must levy
mere seconds passed
and nothing seems wrong
all is good and norm
his fear does not prolong
except for the corner
a new addition to the room
a radiator
with tassels grand abloom
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